Misery July

Okay, for this post, I am gonna rant about this month. So bloodily ranted.

1. I don't have extra money to spend for the rest of my month, thus I have to rely on my mum for cash in every way. So tolling right? But there ain't any more choice is there? When there's any test or exams, this is the kind of S H I T that I have to go through. All because of my grades damn it. For my grades... ... there goes my beret cap, new laptop bag, new jacket, new shirt, new bag, and most importantly, my spamming session at the arcades. That is seriously the saddest part for me. to add on to that, I hav not yet returned my debt of my friends:

a. Don = $16
b. Mashi = $25
c. My NYP Gang members: Money for the multi-birthday surprise cum celebration for the month of July.

Sorry guys and gals, Imma kind of hard up right now. Perhaps the next month when I get my salary? Promise that I will owe you all zilch ASAP. Feels bad about it Heeeheee. After all, I am just that.

2. I hate the way projects and schoolwork often gets clashed together. This sucks totally, and I like this month not even an inch, except for the fact that my sweet and sticky god-mama has OFFICIALLY released some really HD videos of her Sticky and Sweet Tour* [Part 1: 2008]. This is really a breather for me for this month.

*Wooohooo, am I fan-boy-ing furiously right now for her godly concert audios. It's amazing that professional editing can do so much to one's vocals, but really, too much of it seems rather fake. There's this side of me furiously scavenging the net for her really state-of-the-art edited audio and live soundtracks, but theres this OTHER side of me saying "It's fake, you know that". But, since she's my idol till the day I grow old, I shall never dislike her, for she's an inspiration to me. I really hop her 2009 Sticky and Sweet Tour [Part 2] can be included into the DVD as well, or another DVD this year. Ok I shall stop the insane fandom here, not like someone else who can go on and on and on ... ...

3. The freaking common test results are still not out after like, what, 2 weeks?! This is one hell of a snail marking system I am seeing for the first time. I hate it when results are still pending when you know it should have been released LONG TIME AGO.

4. I really enjoy the celebration for Wanwen and Hui Wen. LOL, both are like goondos/ dummys when doing all the birthday 'stations'. I will post the photos if I have spare time AFTER MARKETING PROJECT is COMPLETED.

5. I will be wanting to work longer hours at PL liao, since I need that much money for my expenditure. If I'm working, I don't take my mum's money at all, period. that's a bit tedious for me, but I guess I have to be somewhat more independent? I am starting to realise the know-hows of spending one's own salary. I eat and spend on what I earn practically. Just hope theres this heavenly schedule where it lies waiting for me to be discovered, and be used.

Life is already such a complex giant schedule.
Why must people make life so complicating by implementing deadlines together on a single period then? You should know what I'm talking about.

For the past week up till now, I have never truly rested, nor truly have some of my free time like I did initially. It's becoma this stale thing called reports, reports, homework, projects, deadlines, reports, projects, projects, assignments, projects, assignments and so on. I feel like I have exhausted most of my energy on just doing quite alot of these sickening pile loads of things.

Some people never do appreciate or even show concern for what I contribute, and make me more pressurised to work even harder. Maybe I'm to be blamed for certain things, like my tardiness, but At least I tried doing it meticulously. Flawlessly. Perfectly. I guarantee to you that 95% of my work have been of the best I could do.

I just feel sad that some of my friends can't be less demanding on my ability. Especially my habit of last-minute hand in. It almost feels that they are leeching on my wellness. Maybe they are more efficient than me, but do you really have to force me to comply with EVERY of your expectations you require? I just can't do it, yes.

And I really yearn for a complete day to relax and get out of this S H I T H O L E of tired life and stress and really get some nice afternoon nap, yes. Just that blissful day where I go home early without any load and stress and drop right onto the bed and sleep through till I'm full. Even though I feel anguish and teary right now, I believe I wil be as good as new if that day comes in time. I just get too emotional typing this rant. I'm gonna stop here. I hope everything changes for the better, for me and my friends. I just need a bit of understanding from their point as a friend, that I have to manage WORK, SCHOOL, PROJECTS, HOMEWORK, FAMILY, GAMING and FREE TIME together. I don't have the luxury of money at my parents' command by just a stretch of the hands, and I most certainly do not really have weekends for my homework. Mostly I'll be working for myself. I am not like others who can do homework on weekends, and get everything done before the week. I work full shift, and don't even have time for leisure when I get home. I am not lucky to be born with a silver spoon, to simply say.

Ok, I'm going back to my misery again, as I type information for marketing now. So Long. Aufwiedersehen~