Fuck You, Bitch.


You're not going to fucking have your cake and eat it. You're fucking wanting your head to be chopped off like Medusa.


And stop proclaiming how your side is always the victims. Pull out those fucking useless eyes of yours through the eye sockets and see clearly: WE ARE THE ONES, NOT YOU. Therefore, YOU have no inch of fucking right to actually vulgarize our family. Fucking Ah Lian way STOP Telling me how maligned and tolerant you are. Stupid, FOUL FUCKING Mouth.


EVERY SINGLE TIME, the invitations are only we heard from Mum. NEVER ONCE did you FUCKING BOTHER to message us. OR PHONE US. FUCKER, go eat shit.


WHY? OH, cause YOU NEVER FUCKING BOTHERED MAH. NEVER FUCKING BOTHERED TO MSG / PHONE US for such stupid things. Everytime mum had to tell us last minute, and we have to rush down, for what? For pretence. sit down there, eat, pretend, pretend and more pretending. Stupid idiotic shits. Don't think only you are entitled to fucking scold ppl like that. I am ALSO ENTITLED.


STUPID BITCH.

POST IT - Beeeeeeeeelated.

Been a gazillion years (if what-not) since I ever came to this site for any visible updates.

I can't believe how busy I am emotionally, mentally and physically. Thanks that to the fucking schoolwork I have been slapped with. Projects after projects, only to be staring at yet more presentations after presentations.

Product Design & Development was torturous enough on its own. Trials of optimization, followed by testing of parameters, and then labelling design as well as the preparation for the food exhibition (poster and prototype samples). Not to mention the group tutorials that sucked like hell every single week. I don't know whether its the lecturer or its just the team members' problem. I believe it to be both though, in my own opinion. Why can't the tutorials be better? Gosh, I hate it everytime the tutorial presentation begins. It's p-p-personal.

Labelling & Regulatory Affairs were also another mental problem. Stupid regulations make you go nuts man, seriously. Lookin for them is even tougher than memorizing it, I SWEAR. It's hard to search for Australia's regulations! Everything about this module is completely F***care seriously! Presentations after presentations make me go sick in the face and in the body, looking through boring schedules and sections of food acts and regulations. I also feel f***ed for the projects, presentations and tutorials for this module. Seriously, I think I know the reason why. It's clear and obvious, yet I just didn't bothered about it in the start of everything. If only I had done it the other way...?

I'm glad Food Business was one  of the best modules of this semester. At least until before Financial Plans started. Now, I'm perplexed by Balance Sheet, Profit & Loss Statement and Cash Flow Statement. Hope I can manage!

Common test wasn't hopeful enough for me. I can't understand why I can't get better results... damn disappointed with fairly some of them. Of course, I deserved it right? Always the baddies (as I put) got better grades. I can't tolerate it, seriously! Damn, becoming angsty all of a sudden... *calms down*

I still have to clear up a shitload of assignments, reports and presentations before I'm officially cleared for the exams revision. I better become more focused and do more work then... tests coming up, and I'm not gonna fail them, or get just-pass marks liao. Hope I can gain back the confidence...

Seriously, it felt a bit better writing these stuff, of  what I've lacked in doing over the past 3 to 4 months. All that angst, stress and compromises I've made (be it in terms of teamwork, schoolwork, slacking excessively, everything what-not) seemed to bottle up and destroy most of my zeal and optimism for the better. They shouldn't stay in my body sia. It felt better now...

Life shouuldn't be so tensed up, I realized. Take some time out of the norm... You'll realize that once you stop for awhile, it falls on you that life is not all about grades, GPA and A's. It's about the amount of satisfaction you get from life.

I'll work harder for everything, despite saying that the grades didn't matter. Well, I'm still gonna pin hopes for a better GPA though 

:)

That's all for now. Should've slept hours ago. Gonna lack sleep soon. Oh, did I mention that I lacked sleep almost every week? Yes. 

I fucking hate Poly schooling~